Thursday, May 24, 2007 ;
11:15 PM
"Sometimes I wonder if anything is absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong, good and bad, truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable? Left to interpretation, gray? Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth... transform it... because we are faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes, things simply catch up to us." quoted from the voiceover by lucas in one tree hill season 4 x 18, the finale for season 4! Aint one tree hill quotes just make ya ponder over the things that happens through your life? Lately, its been really shitty and a real bummer to go to school every single day. With hardly any motivation at all, its tough having to survive a whole full day of crap in school. Sigh. Things had been pretty bad ever since the start of term 2. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction and im just totally lost once again. Its not that i dun wanna open up to the rest of the class, its just that i cant do it no matter how much i try to. I guess i just need more time to interact with the rest of the class. Its nearing the end of the term soon and im seriously dreading the upcoming hols as it only means that i HAVE to start mugging real hard for the common tests right after the sch hols. Man, this gonna be the longgggggggggessssssttttt june hols ever. Well, not that i have a choice anw. I seriously dont understand why am i being treated this way. Cant we be friends like we were before? Why does things have to change just because u know about the truth. I aint sure that you even really know about the truth but i just presume u do from the attitude i had been getting from ya for the past few weeks, perhaps even months. And to YOU, seriously, stop treating as if im invisible. I thought we could have become pretty decent friends via the things we had shared with each other before u started ignoring me like nobody's business. It just hurts like fuck the way we are now. Cant we just talk to each other again? Is it really that hard for ya to do that again? Sigh. Stop ignoring me alright? Life's been a bitch and it aint gonna be any better till i get ya back where i can talk to you again. So please, dont ignore me anymore alright? Anw guys, i know no one ever read my blog again due to the lack of posts most of the time but yeah, sorry for another frustarted, emo, angry post. I nid this place for me to rant before i burst one day. Sigh. Im off to bed. Gd night everyone.
every day is a new day :)
