Have you ever wondered what marks or timing? With one life can really make an impact on the world Of the choices we made that matter I believe they do and i believe that one man can change many lives For better or worse
every day is a new day :)
Tuesday, December 05, 2006 ;
1:46 PM
man! i finally got the answer to my question. It wasnt exactly what i wanted it to be, but nevertheless, i feel...more or less relieved rather than hurt. At least i finally know the answer to my question. Rather than speculating throughout the whole hols on how she feels about me. She said we can still be friends, really gd friends in fact. Well, its not like i do not want to be friends with her after getting rejected, but still! i need some time to get over it before we can be real friends. Being the understanding person she is, I am sure u will understand yeah? (though shes always so blur and ignorant -.-"). But well, lets be really really gd friends after i get through this "trauma" k! Man, this is the first time i ever confessed to a gerl like this, and very likely, the last time i will be doing the same thing again. As the saying goes, "once beaten! twice shy!"...and so...oh well, time will tell, i guess =)
anw on a side note, man dude, i am sorry i ever doubted you man. After a night of pondering and pondering over certain issues, i came to a conclusion that. Even if what i suspected is true! EVEN IF ...it doesnt really matter does it? What matters is, how much i trusted you. And i am really sorry to say that, i didnt trusted you that much after all. Its not like i do not want to trustyou at all, its just that. Sometimes, after being betrayed too many times before, it aint always that easy to learn how to trust someone again. And for that, i am sorry. I hope we still can be friends? Though the possibliity aint tat high, but still, i really hope u can forgive my insecurity and the lack of trust i had for you.
Anw, the day started off on a really terrible note. I woke up at 12pm as usual, and i proceed to turn on my laptop which was beside my bed. AND TO MY HORROR! i could not access my wireless network. And damn it! i tried restarting my laptop over and over again, for like 10 over times. AND IT DIDNT WORK. Then i gave up trying, and went into my study room, and decided to tinker around with my...ehrm...i tink modem! and i switch it on and off for like 3 times. And i went back to my laptop which was in my room! Luckily for me! my internet connection was finally established and i am here now, typing out this entry. hahaha. Today will be another dry day at home, or i may go out for a game of basketball lata in the late noon. Oh well, have a great day everyone! toodles =)))
every day is a new day :)
Monday, December 04, 2006 ;
12:58 AM
Sometimes, it comes to a point when, even though you badly dont wanna give it up without a fight, you realise its totally pointless to carry on. And thats, the point i am at now. The point in which you feel like crap, worthless, and totally bummed out. Shes someone i just know recently, someone that when i first saw her, i knew that, shes the one! she is the one! yeah. And so that was what i thought it was. The feeling was there, everything was perfect. We got off to a gd start, i talked to her, and she talked to me, and it was like the very few times in which i can talk so freely to someone the opposite sex. I aint determining shes the one for me just base on that of course, but then, that was something i thought. "Yeah, its worth it, its something i wanna go for". But alas, usually in my life, things that got off to a flying start, usually end off in a really sad and sorry note. And its the same this time round. Things began to just get totally screwed up, nothing seems right, and i even! even had convo block online. I hardly get that at all, unless i talk to people i really detest or have totally no common point of interest at all. Sigh. I shall give myself a few more days or maybe a week. And try my very best, all my effort, to forget about her. Its gonna be really hard and tough, but i know, i will pull through...
I have to..
And i realise i been blogging like 4 times today, and its like 1 plus am right now. And i aint feeling sleepy at all. I guess theres too much on my mind right now to fall asleep on my bed just lik e that. Well, i guess i will go play dota till my mind just go completely shut. Good night everyone. Toodles.
every day is a new day :)
Sunday, December 03, 2006 ;
2:47 PM
" Say what u will about the ravages of sports in these corporate age where overpaid athetles expect predominant treatment but there is still something so unifying about sports in its purest form, when athetles rise above themselves and touch greatness and in doing so remind us all that we also have greatness inside of us. "
When i heard these sentences as i watch my favourite show of one tree hill season 4, i was really touched man. It was an indescribable feeling that made my heart beat even faster as i heard it. It may sound so darn exaggerated but its all so true. Anyway, this episode of one tree hill was so touching that it almost cause me to tear after watching the really dramatic and emo parts of this episode. While watching the Ravens battling it out in the state championship, overcoming their initial differences, their fears, and fighting hard to prove to their love ones that they too can create history, was really emotional. It was by far the greatest episode of one tree hill season 1-4 ever. Since it was such an inspirational episode, i decided to post it on my blog and share with u peeps reading my blog. Enjoy the show. =)
and on a side note, i AM still missing her. Even as i play dota and all, trying to divert my thoughts away from her. Arggg. I sure hope its only a minor, really small crush so i can get over it soon. Man. i sure hope thats the case. =S
every day is a new day :)
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2:44 PM
One Tree Hill season 4 Episode 9 pt. 4
every day is a new day :)
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One Tree Hill Season 4 Episode 9 Pt. 3
every day is a new day :)
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One Tree Hill Season 4 Episode 9 Pt. 2
every day is a new day :)
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One Tree Hill Season 4 Episode 9 pt.1
every day is a new day :)
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12:06 PM
ahhh!!! I MISS HER! >.<
man...this feeling just sucks...arggg =S
every day is a new day :)
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1:00 AM
Just came back from the combined SFC and SFC camp...hmm...it turned out to be really fun and all...met many new friends...had a great time trying out new activities...and i finally conquered my fear of repelling! or is it emsailing...watever the spelling is...its the activity in which u sort of hmmm...crawl down from 3 storeys high or something? I didnt dare to try this activity out during my days in ncc...but that was a little different as the ncc repelling station was like 5 storeys high or something? hahahaha...yeah...i am a wuss k...but i just didnt dare to do it...oh well...=x
Am still feeling the after-effects of such a tiring camp that i slept like 10 hours plus plus a day for like 2 straight days...this is certainly an astonishing feat as i hardly sleep like 2 to 3 hours a day during the hols? hahahaha...and on the other hand...i am feeling really disappointed, bitter...maybe even a little pissssed off...over some really stupid and childish reason tat even i am too embarassed to say it out here...oh well...but tat person really mean alot to me...ahhh...i guess i will just have an early night today...oh well...toodles
