Thursday, May 24, 2007 ;
11:15 PM
"Sometimes I wonder if anything is absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong, good and bad, truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable? Left to interpretation, gray? Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth... transform it... because we are faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes, things simply catch up to us." quoted from the voiceover by lucas in one tree hill season 4 x 18, the finale for season 4! Aint one tree hill quotes just make ya ponder over the things that happens through your life? Lately, its been really shitty and a real bummer to go to school every single day. With hardly any motivation at all, its tough having to survive a whole full day of crap in school. Sigh. Things had been pretty bad ever since the start of term 2. Nothing seems to be going in the right direction and im just totally lost once again. Its not that i dun wanna open up to the rest of the class, its just that i cant do it no matter how much i try to. I guess i just need more time to interact with the rest of the class. Its nearing the end of the term soon and im seriously dreading the upcoming hols as it only means that i HAVE to start mugging real hard for the common tests right after the sch hols. Man, this gonna be the longgggggggggessssssttttt june hols ever. Well, not that i have a choice anw. I seriously dont understand why am i being treated this way. Cant we be friends like we were before? Why does things have to change just because u know about the truth. I aint sure that you even really know about the truth but i just presume u do from the attitude i had been getting from ya for the past few weeks, perhaps even months. And to YOU, seriously, stop treating as if im invisible. I thought we could have become pretty decent friends via the things we had shared with each other before u started ignoring me like nobody's business. It just hurts like fuck the way we are now. Cant we just talk to each other again? Is it really that hard for ya to do that again? Sigh. Stop ignoring me alright? Life's been a bitch and it aint gonna be any better till i get ya back where i can talk to you again. So please, dont ignore me anymore alright? Anw guys, i know no one ever read my blog again due to the lack of posts most of the time but yeah, sorry for another frustarted, emo, angry post. I nid this place for me to rant before i burst one day. Sigh. Im off to bed. Gd night everyone.
every day is a new day :)
Sunday, May 20, 2007 ;
12:38 AM
I was going to blog like on my birthday but i couldnt as blogger was giving me problems as usual. so yeah. here i am now.For the past few days, as my birthday draws near, i had a niggling feeling inside me that this was going to be the worst birthday ever. I had absolutely no idea why the heck i was feeling this way, but yeah, it was just some weird feeling that i had.
Today was the fifth of May. I was bumming around the house as usual, playing the com and watching teeeveeeee. Had a short nap from roughly 4-7? When i woke up at 7pm, BOY. Was i damn shocked. Right in the living room, there was like...at least 15-20 ppl from church???!!! Hell. I got the shock of my life. I was still clad in my sji pe shirt and shorts when most of them saw me la. It was quite paiseh, i must say. lol. Had a quick change, and my birthday celebrations began. We started singing some church hyymmmss and just sat around, kinda catching on with some of them whom i haven seen in ages. Had a really nice talk in my room with peeps from my batch. It was great seeing them again and it was just like how kinda close we were in the past. Was kinda surprised and sad when i was told that most of the peeps from my batch had hidden gone MIA ( just like me =x ) or they had changed to other churches. Sigh. And yeah, i got taupok by i tink 7 guys or more? couldnt really count as i got slammed to the ground pretty quickly after my mum warned the guys that my bed cant really hold too many ppl. Man, it was like...@$%@)$^($@)^(@^)@! The total weight of the guys could have amount to at least 500kg? HAHAHAHA. But it was alright i guess. =DDD
And guys, sorry for not really getting that high with the rest of you cause i was totally and i mean TOTALLY damn shocked throughout the whole birthday celebrations. My mum kept it from me for the whole day till you guys came to my house. Thanks alot for the cards and bball attire! I was honestly quite touched after reading through the cards. =) Thanks for the dumb-bell too ( weiwen, shuhan, chenwei ). Though im pretty sure im strong enough to lift a dumb-bell heavier than 1kg. LOL. Am i tat weak to u guys. wth. hahahahaha. Thanks to all who had made my birthday celebrations so meaningful and memorable. For once, perhaps, this could be the birthday, that i will remember for a very very very long time =)))
Anw, sorry for not going to church for sucha longgggggggggggggggggggggggg time. I kinda lost the motivation to go church anymore. BUT! i will be back realllllllll soon i promise! and this time for gd! But that will be like another 2 weeks at least till i get my new contact lens. So yeah, bear with me awhile longer k! Thanks man =D
every day is a new day :)
