Sunday, January 28, 2007 ;
6:04 PM
One Tree Hill 4X11 : Resolve" Sometimes pain become such a huge part of your life that you expect it to always be there, because you can't remember a time in your life when it wasn't. But then one day u feel something else. Something that feels wrong only because it's so unfamiliar, and in that moment you realise you're happy. " " Happiness comes in many forms. In the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dreams come true, or in a promise of hope renewed. It's alright to let yourself be happy, because you never know how fleeting that happiness might be. " Season 4 of One Tree Hill had been so light hearted and enjoyable to watch! Its sucha great show and everyone should watch it! ( you can find those episodes on youtube! =D )
every day is a new day :)
Thursday, January 25, 2007 ;
4:06 PM
Sigh, today must be one of the lowest point in my life. Throughout my 2 years experience in wearing contact lens, i've always had problems with it, But i'd always brush it off as i seldom wash my contact lens in the past. I started to changed for the better since the 2nd half of 2006 and started washing my contact lens regularly every single day if i could. Lately, my contact lens kept driving me crazy by irritating my eyes like hell to the point of i tearing throughout the entire day. I went to the optician to make a new pair of specs today as i had slept with my previous specs and had accidentally crushed it into pieces (-_-)Since i was there to make new specs, i figured, why dont i let the optician check my eyes and c if theres any problem with it. At that point of time, I didnt think the problem would be that serious.I was shocked and in a total confused state of mind as he told me the condition in which my eyes are in. He said something like, the upper eye lid of ur left eye had some bumps on it and thats likely to be the reason why your contact lens always move up and down when u blink. Your right cornea is slightly injured and it will require at least 2 weeks for it to be fully recover. And in this 2 weeks, u will not be able to see clearly with your right eye. But the worst part was yet to come. He continued " You will have to wear your specs for the next 2 whole weeks. And even after the 2 weeks, you can only wear contact lens for at most 3 times a week. Lastly, this will have to go on for at least the next few years. =(I know this aint much of a big deal to most people as they can just switch to specs and carry on with their daily life. But it IS a big fat deal to me. I always had a problem with my self esteem since young. Since secondary 2, i had been trying my best to look good as i always thought this may be the easiest and fastest way to gain self esteem ( though many people had been telling me that whats important is the person within you ). Contact lens had really played a major role in my attempt of making myself look good as much as i can. I really cant imagine the YEARS i have to endure wearing specs or the mere thought of wearing specs EVERY single day for at least the next 2 weeks. I even thought of ponning sch for the next 2 weeks though i know that thats a really dumb thing to do. Sigh. And the fact that i can blame no one but myself for all this just made it even harder for me to accept. IF only i had taken better care of my eyes and my personal hygiene, none of this will happen at all. Man, i guess i just have to accept this fact as soon as possible and make do with it. Time to start looking like a damn nerd once again. Damn it. Life just sucks big time. =(((((
every day is a new day :)
Monday, January 22, 2007 ;
8:10 PM
WOAH! its been sooooooooooooooooooooooo long since i last updated my blog and even im shocked by how long i didnt post a single entry at all. And this is despite the fact that im online almost every single day. HA. I guess i just got lazy at one point or another that i cant really be bothered to update my blog. I bet no one reads my blog anymore, though i doubt i had any readers to begin with. But oh well, this blog will be a place where i can channel my inner frustrations and rantings, so i will continue to post new entries whenever i can on my life =D
Its been the start of a whole new year for me. The start of this year, the orientation, was really horrible for me and the other retainees. We felt eyes on our backs no matter where we walk to around the school. It was terrible. And for the first time in my life, i WISHED dearly that school will start soon, where tutorials and lectures will finally began. However, as the first 2 weeks were all crappy lectures, i ended up going home at like, 10 to 11am every single day? ha. Its been around 3 days since the normal timetable had begun. Things are going real smoothly. Much much better than i ever expected. I was expecting the class to look at me as though i was some 2 headed, 3 legged freako with 10 eyes or something -.-" But luckily for me, i didnt had anything like that from them. In fact, majority of them were friendly and easy to talk to. And i sure hope that after the 1st 3 months, most of them will be staying in sajc and perhaps be in the same class again. =)
Anw, been catching up episodes of One tree hill season 4 and the OC season 3. AND! i gonna post some really really meaningful phrases that touches deep into your heart and worth spending some time thinking about it. So here it goes,
Have you ever had a dream that seems so real
When you woke up,
you didnt know what to believe?
What would u do if what you thought was true,
Wasnt
And what u thought wasnt true,
Was
Would u retreat into your dreams with the hope of
finding a more perfect reality?
Sometimes, life is stranded in a dream
And the only way to wake up is to face what lies are hidden in your souls
And you can only hope that in those moments of dark reflection
that you are not alone
Kinda meaningful isnt it? =)
Anw, heres a song called "Wait For Love" by a singer called Matt White for the show One Tree Hill =D
Wait For Love
Its like a quarter to 3
And i just cant sleep
Cause im thinking of you
And all those times we cried
Did we really try
Now im dreaming and blue
No matter where, we say goodbye
I'll tell u baby, keep your head high.
I'll wait for love,
I'll wait for you,
I'll wait for love,
I'll wait will you?
When times are hard.
I think of you
I'll wait for love
I'll wait for love
And looking in my eyes,
No more telling lies.
Asking too much of you.
And when u kiss my lips,
Love is what i miss.
Not knowing we'd be through.
No matter where, we say goodbye.
I'll tell u darling, I wont cry.
I'll wait for love
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for love
I'll wait, will you?
When times are hard.
I think of you
I'll wait for love
I'll wait for love
Your eyes still gaze at me,
Through pictures
You could just be the one that got away,
I looked down at the phone, its the number
Too many times a day.
I'll wait for love
I'll wait for you
I'll wait for love
I'll wait, will you?
When times are hard.
I think of you.
I'll wait for love,
I'll wait for love.
Man this song is so addictive that i been listening to it for 2 straight days. Those who wanna listen to this song after reading the lyrics, pm me on msn k! i will send it to ya asap =D
every day is a new day :)
