Thursday, January 25, 2007 ;
4:06 PM
Sigh, today must be one of the lowest point in my life. Throughout my 2 years experience in wearing contact lens, i've always had problems with it, But i'd always brush it off as i seldom wash my contact lens in the past. I started to changed for the better since the 2nd half of 2006 and started washing my contact lens regularly every single day if i could. Lately, my contact lens kept driving me crazy by irritating my eyes like hell to the point of i tearing throughout the entire day. I went to the optician to make a new pair of specs today as i had slept with my previous specs and had accidentally crushed it into pieces (-_-)Since i was there to make new specs, i figured, why dont i let the optician check my eyes and c if theres any problem with it. At that point of time, I didnt think the problem would be that serious.I was shocked and in a total confused state of mind as he told me the condition in which my eyes are in. He said something like, the upper eye lid of ur left eye had some bumps on it and thats likely to be the reason why your contact lens always move up and down when u blink. Your right cornea is slightly injured and it will require at least 2 weeks for it to be fully recover. And in this 2 weeks, u will not be able to see clearly with your right eye. But the worst part was yet to come. He continued " You will have to wear your specs for the next 2 whole weeks. And even after the 2 weeks, you can only wear contact lens for at most 3 times a week. Lastly, this will have to go on for at least the next few years. =(I know this aint much of a big deal to most people as they can just switch to specs and carry on with their daily life. But it IS a big fat deal to me. I always had a problem with my self esteem since young. Since secondary 2, i had been trying my best to look good as i always thought this may be the easiest and fastest way to gain self esteem ( though many people had been telling me that whats important is the person within you ). Contact lens had really played a major role in my attempt of making myself look good as much as i can. I really cant imagine the YEARS i have to endure wearing specs or the mere thought of wearing specs EVERY single day for at least the next 2 weeks. I even thought of ponning sch for the next 2 weeks though i know that thats a really dumb thing to do. Sigh. And the fact that i can blame no one but myself for all this just made it even harder for me to accept. IF only i had taken better care of my eyes and my personal hygiene, none of this will happen at all. Man, i guess i just have to accept this fact as soon as possible and make do with it. Time to start looking like a damn nerd once again. Damn it. Life just sucks big time. =(((((
every day is a new day :)
