Monday, December 04, 2006 ;
12:58 AM
Sometimes, it comes to a point when, even though you badly dont wanna give it up without a fight, you realise its totally pointless to carry on. And thats, the point i am at now. The point in which you feel like crap, worthless, and totally bummed out. Shes someone i just know recently, someone that when i first saw her, i knew that, shes the one! she is the one! yeah. And so that was what i thought it was. The feeling was there, everything was perfect. We got off to a gd start, i talked to her, and she talked to me, and it was like the very few times in which i can talk so freely to someone the opposite sex. I aint determining shes the one for me just base on that of course, but then, that was something i thought. "Yeah, its worth it, its something i wanna go for". But alas, usually in my life, things that got off to a flying start, usually end off in a really sad and sorry note. And its the same this time round. Things began to just get totally screwed up, nothing seems right, and i even! even had convo block online. I hardly get that at all, unless i talk to people i really detest or have totally no common point of interest at all. Sigh. I shall give myself a few more days or maybe a week. And try my very best, all my effort, to forget about her. Its gonna be really hard and tough, but i know, i will pull through...I have to..And i realise i been blogging like 4 times today, and its like 1 plus am right now. And i aint feeling sleepy at all. I guess theres too much on my mind right now to fall asleep on my bed just lik e that. Well, i guess i will go play dota till my mind just go completely shut. Good night everyone. Toodles.
every day is a new day :)
