Tuesday, December 05, 2006 ;
1:46 PM
man! i finally got the answer to my question. It wasnt exactly what i wanted it to be, but nevertheless, i feel...more or less relieved rather than hurt. At least i finally know the answer to my question. Rather than speculating throughout the whole hols on how she feels about me. She said we can still be friends, really gd friends in fact. Well, its not like i do not want to be friends with her after getting rejected, but still! i need some time to get over it before we can be real friends. Being the understanding person she is, I am sure u will understand yeah? (though shes always so blur and ignorant -.-"). But well, lets be really really gd friends after i get through this "trauma" k! Man, this is the first time i ever confessed to a gerl like this, and very likely, the last time i will be doing the same thing again. As the saying goes, "once beaten! twice shy!"...and so...oh well, time will tell, i guess =)anw on a side note, man dude, i am sorry i ever doubted you man. After a night of pondering and pondering over certain issues, i came to a conclusion that. Even if what i suspected is true! EVEN IF ...it doesnt really matter does it? What matters is, how much i trusted you. And i am really sorry to say that, i didnt trusted you that much after all. Its not like i do not want to trustyou at all, its just that. Sometimes, after being betrayed too many times before, it aint always that easy to learn how to trust someone again. And for that, i am sorry. I hope we still can be friends? Though the possibliity aint tat high, but still, i really hope u can forgive my insecurity and the lack of trust i had for you. Anw, the day started off on a really terrible note. I woke up at 12pm as usual, and i proceed to turn on my laptop which was beside my bed. AND TO MY HORROR! i could not access my wireless network. And damn it! i tried restarting my laptop over and over again, for like 10 over times. AND IT DIDNT WORK. Then i gave up trying, and went into my study room, and decided to tinker around with my...ehrm...i tink modem! and i switch it on and off for like 3 times. And i went back to my laptop which was in my room! Luckily for me! my internet connection was finally established and i am here now, typing out this entry. hahaha. Today will be another dry day at home, or i may go out for a game of basketball lata in the late noon. Oh well, have a great day everyone! toodles =)))
every day is a new day :)
